Daily conversation #4

- Have you ever thought about another guy while you were dating him?
- Now that you’ve asked me about this, I honestly think about it all the time and that if I could find another one who was better, I’d dump him ghost him and hurt him in the most possible way.
- That’s harsh! I thought you were really in love with each other!
- I guess so, but there is no point sugar coating it anyway. It was so toxic and we were as lost as each other and though I pretended to be innocent and good all the time. I wish I had the courage to be as bad and hurt him the way he hurt me. I never wanted to be his and his forever. I hated his gut but was too chicken to leave.
- Did you regret anything?
- I do, about a lot! I regret I was in such a bad relationship but I never realized that. It was great to know what I do not like in a relationship, somehow, I experienced every bad thing in one. If it ended somewhere I could look back and think, he was such a great guy and we just didn’t work out, that’d be so much better.